[ Disappointingly, Matthew only gets to enjoy seeing Daisy smile at him for a brief second before his view of her swoops alarmingly, her phone presumably abandoned on the bed as she does something off-camera, the noises of her shuffling around and the occasional flash of her hair or edge of his sweatshirt all he can see before suddenly the shot of her resolves into a proper landscape-oriented view, obviously on her laptop. ]
Hey. [ He can't help the way he almost sighs out the greeting, relieved and pleased in equal measure to see her, even if his eyebrows draw close together at the sight of her swiping her hand over her face, using the cuff of his sweatshirt to dab under her cheeks.
He doesn't care about her tousled hair, or the fact that she's not wearing makeup, or the way that she looks kind of a mess right now. He only cares about the smile she's wearing, and the way she immediately swears to go to New Jersey, of all places, just to see him. He laughs quietly, so soft and fond, his hair tousled and his glasses reflecting the screen back at her until he pulls them off and hooks them in the neck of his shirt. ]
Wow. You must really like me, huh? [ Only fair, to be honest, because his night had been alright up until this point, but seeing her has made everything so much better. ]
Yeah, [ and much like his simple hey, the word comes out breathlessly, impossibly honest and raw and real, the smile on her face threatening to break some known record of illumination before it's interrupted. not by a frown or a sigh, but by the tug of her teeth against the inside of her lip, and then by her lower lip caught between them, a pause in her statement punctuated by that toying, tempting (and yet entirely unintentional, just this once) motion of her mouth. ]
I really do like you.
[ she couldn't take that back if she wanted to — but she does not. she likes him. likes him, likes him; the way she remembers girls giddily whispering in their twin beds inside the dormitory rooms at st agnes, something far beyond friendship or companionship or even simple lust. this isn't just the fact that she likes the way his mouth or his hands (or the rest of him) feel against her body, this isn't about the fact that he's so goddamn handsome he makes her want to tug him into a closet every time she sees his face, this isn't about anything physical at all.
it's about the way that she feels safe when he holds her. it's about the swell of happiness she feels when he smiles at her, the pride in his eyes when she talks about her class work, the gentle way he tucks her hair behind her ears when they're in his office or in a booth at a restaurant. it's about the fact that she wants to see him, every minute of every day, and that she doesn't mind sacrificing some of her own time to make it happen.
she really, really likes him. and she can't pretend like she doesn't. not to his face. ]
[ Sliding down against the headboard, Matt slouches into his pillows and draws his knees up, positioning his lap top in such a way that it feels like she's close to him and they're just murmuring quietly to each other like they're at a sleepover and not hundreds of miles apart. ]
That's handy, [ he says, his eyes crinkling as he smiles at her, obviously enchanted. ] Because I really like you too. It'd be pretty embarrassing if you felt differently.
[ It's easy to joke about it when he's had confirmation that she agrees; he wouldn't feel nearly so good about teasing her if she hadn't confirmed that she was just as stupid over him as he is over her. Matt may be a lot of things, but entirely secure in himself is not one of those things, and the fact that he truly, deeply cares about her opinion means he'll never be entirely certain he's earned a good one.
Maybe he's an idiot for making such a fool of himself over a girl ten years his junior, but hey. She's looking pretty foolish over him, too. They can be foolish together. ]
[ daisy huffs out a laugh at that, equal parts groaning and amused; she doesn't outright roll her eyes, but she does shake her head at him a little, admonishing without much bite. ]
I don't. [ and he knows she doesn't, but she wants to remind him. wants to tell him one more time, while he's smiling so sweetly at her, that she cares. that she likes him so much it makes her wonder if it's possible to care more. ] You drive me crazy, you know.
[ in the best possible way. in the kind of way that keeps her up at night sometimes, giddy and unable to stop thinking about him; in the kind of way that makes her willing to get up earlier in the morning or sacrifice a nap mid-day just to squeeze in a few more minutes of time; in the kind of way that makes her better just to make it work. ]
[ She can huff and roll her eyes at him all she likes; it's obvious Matt likes it when she does, if the way his smile broadens is any indication.
He likes to see her happy, so sue him. ]
Good. [ It's really too bad they're so far apart. He wants to be able to reach in and run his fingers through his hair, to settle her collar, to thumb her cheek. Any excuse to touch her, really. He's not picky. ] That makes it easier for me to forgive myself for the literally countless times I think about you every day.
[ He's spent this whole weekend thinking of things to tell her, little asides that have him half-turning as if she's already beside him, anecdotes to send her over text, jokes he wants to tell her later just to see her laugh in that way that makes her nose scrunch up adorably. He's been thinking of how she'd look if she came with him, out sunning herself at the pool, dressed up in the hotel bar, lounging naked in his bed.
[ she wouldn't mind. for as many times as he's moved to touch her, daisy's equally drawn to him. there have been more moments than she can count where she's wanted to peer up and gauge his reaction to something, or to reach over and lace her hands in his, or to come climb into his lap in his office chair or on her bed after too long a stint trying to distract herself by working.
it's funny how what should be productivity — time apart, time left to herself, time she had well before he came along — now feels like wasted time. she's still getting her work done, but there's no motivation to finish it. she can be lazy, she can take naps, she can waste hours of her day watching netflix or scrolling through news articles instead of focusing and getting things done in order to do something she wants to do more. (like him.) ]
It's already been two days.
[ more than that, really. an afternoon lost to travel, plus two full conference days — she won't see him again until the day after tomorrow now, late in the evening when his plane touches down. ]
What'd you do to me, Mr Robertson? [ a soft laugh, self-deprecating and almost bashful at the same time. ] You've left me pining for you like one of your poets.
[ The thing is, right, Matt remember this feeling. He's been in love before. He knows the warning signs, and he's ignoring them completely, because it's fucking nice to feel this way again, and he's already in too deep. What's he going to do now, ignore her in an effort to get her to move on from him?
He may be pretty stupid, sometimes, but he's not stupid enough to ghost someone like Daisy, thanks.
His smile softening at her when she confesses to pining, he winks at her through the camera. ] That's Doctor Robertson, thank you. [ He didn't spend all that goddamn money on getting a PhD to not have people address him by his hard-won title.
Actually, that's a lie. Most of the time he feels vaguely uncomfortable when people refer to him as doctor, though exposure therapy has made it so that he's stopped flinching when his students say that to him. It's a pretty good warning signal, honestly, if he can hear someone asking Sharon if Doctor Robertson is in, it usually means someone is going to show up to his office and ask him for an extension.
Sliding down the headboard of his hotel bed, he props the laptop up a little more comfortably on his middle and fits an arm behind his head so he can still see. ]
[ it's a concession, but a teasing one. the words come weaved into laughter and teasing smiles, reflected in the glint of amusement in her eyes visible even through the compression of her laptop camera. ]
It's been okay. [ not great, not terrible. nothing to write home about. she shrugs a little, mostly for effect. ] I was going to go into the library, but it's been gross all day, so I just worked from my room.
[ the library's coding lab is dark and filled with obnoxiously large workstations, each outfitted with multiple monitors and the sort of nerd chic accoutrements that cost more than any reasonable person would spend: keyboards that clack just so, mice that fit comfortably in the palm of a hand for hours, chairs that seem to fit to the user while still breathable. it's somewhere that offers daisy a taste at what many of her fellows have bought for themselves, top of the line gear. ]
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Hey. [ He can't help the way he almost sighs out the greeting, relieved and pleased in equal measure to see her, even if his eyebrows draw close together at the sight of her swiping her hand over her face, using the cuff of his sweatshirt to dab under her cheeks.
He doesn't care about her tousled hair, or the fact that she's not wearing makeup, or the way that she looks kind of a mess right now. He only cares about the smile she's wearing, and the way she immediately swears to go to New Jersey, of all places, just to see him. He laughs quietly, so soft and fond, his hair tousled and his glasses reflecting the screen back at her until he pulls them off and hooks them in the neck of his shirt. ]
Wow. You must really like me, huh? [ Only fair, to be honest, because his night had been alright up until this point, but seeing her has made everything so much better. ]
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I really do like you.
[ she couldn't take that back if she wanted to — but she does not. she likes him. likes him, likes him; the way she remembers girls giddily whispering in their twin beds inside the dormitory rooms at st agnes, something far beyond friendship or companionship or even simple lust. this isn't just the fact that she likes the way his mouth or his hands (or the rest of him) feel against her body, this isn't about the fact that he's so goddamn handsome he makes her want to tug him into a closet every time she sees his face, this isn't about anything physical at all.
it's about the way that she feels safe when he holds her. it's about the swell of happiness she feels when he smiles at her, the pride in his eyes when she talks about her class work, the gentle way he tucks her hair behind her ears when they're in his office or in a booth at a restaurant. it's about the fact that she wants to see him, every minute of every day, and that she doesn't mind sacrificing some of her own time to make it happen.
she really, really likes him. and she can't pretend like she doesn't. not to his face. ]
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That's handy, [ he says, his eyes crinkling as he smiles at her, obviously enchanted. ] Because I really like you too. It'd be pretty embarrassing if you felt differently.
[ It's easy to joke about it when he's had confirmation that she agrees; he wouldn't feel nearly so good about teasing her if she hadn't confirmed that she was just as stupid over him as he is over her. Matt may be a lot of things, but entirely secure in himself is not one of those things, and the fact that he truly, deeply cares about her opinion means he'll never be entirely certain he's earned a good one.
Maybe he's an idiot for making such a fool of himself over a girl ten years his junior, but hey. She's looking pretty foolish over him, too. They can be foolish together. ]
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I don't. [ and he knows she doesn't, but she wants to remind him. wants to tell him one more time, while he's smiling so sweetly at her, that she cares. that she likes him so much it makes her wonder if it's possible to care more. ] You drive me crazy, you know.
[ in the best possible way. in the kind of way that keeps her up at night sometimes, giddy and unable to stop thinking about him; in the kind of way that makes her willing to get up earlier in the morning or sacrifice a nap mid-day just to squeeze in a few more minutes of time; in the kind of way that makes her better just to make it work. ]
I can't wait to see you.
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He likes to see her happy, so sue him. ]
Good. [ It's really too bad they're so far apart. He wants to be able to reach in and run his fingers through his hair, to settle her collar, to thumb her cheek. Any excuse to touch her, really. He's not picky. ] That makes it easier for me to forgive myself for the literally countless times I think about you every day.
[ He's spent this whole weekend thinking of things to tell her, little asides that have him half-turning as if she's already beside him, anecdotes to send her over text, jokes he wants to tell her later just to see her laugh in that way that makes her nose scrunch up adorably. He's been thinking of how she'd look if she came with him, out sunning herself at the pool, dressed up in the hotel bar, lounging naked in his bed.
Two days seems like a long time. ]
Just two days.
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it's funny how what should be productivity — time apart, time left to herself, time she had well before he came along — now feels like wasted time. she's still getting her work done, but there's no motivation to finish it. she can be lazy, she can take naps, she can waste hours of her day watching netflix or scrolling through news articles instead of focusing and getting things done in order to do something she wants to do more. (like him.) ]
It's already been two days.
[ more than that, really. an afternoon lost to travel, plus two full conference days — she won't see him again until the day after tomorrow now, late in the evening when his plane touches down. ]
What'd you do to me, Mr Robertson? [ a soft laugh, self-deprecating and almost bashful at the same time. ] You've left me pining for you like one of your poets.
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He may be pretty stupid, sometimes, but he's not stupid enough to ghost someone like Daisy, thanks.
His smile softening at her when she confesses to pining, he winks at her through the camera. ] That's Doctor Robertson, thank you. [ He didn't spend all that goddamn money on getting a PhD to not have people address him by his hard-won title.
Actually, that's a lie. Most of the time he feels vaguely uncomfortable when people refer to him as doctor, though exposure therapy has made it so that he's stopped flinching when his students say that to him. It's a pretty good warning signal, honestly, if he can hear someone asking Sharon if Doctor Robertson is in, it usually means someone is going to show up to his office and ask him for an extension.
Sliding down the headboard of his hotel bed, he props the laptop up a little more comfortably on his middle and fits an arm behind his head so he can still see. ]
Tell me about your day?
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[ it's a concession, but a teasing one. the words come weaved into laughter and teasing smiles, reflected in the glint of amusement in her eyes visible even through the compression of her laptop camera. ]
It's been okay. [ not great, not terrible. nothing to write home about. she shrugs a little, mostly for effect. ] I was going to go into the library, but it's been gross all day, so I just worked from my room.
[ the library's coding lab is dark and filled with obnoxiously large workstations, each outfitted with multiple monitors and the sort of nerd chic accoutrements that cost more than any reasonable person would spend: keyboards that clack just so, mice that fit comfortably in the palm of a hand for hours, chairs that seem to fit to the user while still breathable. it's somewhere that offers daisy a taste at what many of her fellows have bought for themselves, top of the line gear. ]
I think the rain's finally letting up, though.